Hey there, me again! This series has become very helpful to me, I must admit. If you're looking for an open canvass to let loose anything inside you that bottles up, spill away in your own blog, I advise it highly. I feel soooo much better just thinking that the raw contents of my mind, heart and soul are released and that they may help anyone across this wonderful planet. Perhaps you've taken something from this to help you? If so, I thank you for taking in my naked identity and applying it in such a great way. :)
This time around is a much better and brighter light of focus, today is great. I've gotten to talk to my best friend I've found in such a curious way. My friend's name is Emma, and she has been my guiding star and inspiration for years, my aid in dark times and the one who has removed my blindness so that I may take in the wonderful things around me most would take for granted. Without her, I would be a different, and much lesser person when it comes to happiness and comfort in life.
We met one day when I had wandered onto a site called Omegle, knowing not what I'd find. I went just to see what conversations go on there back in the spring of 2010. We talked for several hours until it was time to finally get some rest, in which we exchanged emails. This meeting was not coincidence in my mind, I was meant to meet this wonderful person. She would talk to me when I had no one else to talk to, in my times of need, and for the pleasure of having a friend to talk to for any reason at all. This is one of the highlights of my life in total.
You see, at this point, there had been a number of negative happenings involving me directly or indirectly, such as family. To the point that in my ignorance I would blame God, and stopped believing in him entirely as I could not understand how good people could be given so much less, so much worse than people who have bad intentions or actions. I had given up on a lot, and even just two years before attempted suicide. I was at the bottom and had no way of telling up from down any longer. I wouldn't be able to see clearly for some time still, but Emma was surely a light to guide me back up, and time would only show me that.
Emma had stuck with me in the worst of times, and now in far better ones. That is what true friends will do for you. They stay for who you are, not how successful you are, or to take in what you have, but simply to be your friend. All of this is very important to me for many reasons, but the biggest in part has to be how she has reintroduced me to God. She has saved me by example, her faith is so strong and shows in everything she does, it is difficult to ignore. I even travelled from the US all the way to Sweden to meet my friend, and this is when I knew for sure I was wrong in my doubts of His existence. I felt so great to begin to see again.
I can never thank this angel of a friend properly for all the selfless things she has done, and most of what I am sharing with you she does not really realize. I trust that the rewarding feelings she gets by helping me are all she would like, but she is an honest to God follower, I believe that in my heart. I've seen too many claimers with weak or false faith. All I can do is offer the same to her, and be the best person I can be, as not to let her efforts and friendship be in vain. Thank you Emma, more than you will ever know.
I share this with you not to push a faith on you, or tell you you're wrong for other beliefs, as long as you are happy and true in life that is all you need. What I am sharing is that I am blessed to have such a friend, and if any of this made you think of someone in your life, I want you to live to the fullest to make them proud of you and of themselves. I pray you have a great friend as I do. If you have Jesus, you will always have a great friend at your side. Allow Him, or your friend, at your side and not to your back. People like Emma can only keep you happy if you let them. Should you turn your back and you hurt yourself more than anyone.
Keep your Mind Ajar and you may find roads less travelled to be exactly what you need to find yourself, and some friends along the way! I love my dear friends, all of them. :)
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