Apology to the Lost

28-4-2013  Page 3  -Sorry and Miss You-
So, during a sleepless night, I had a look back in my things to remember those who were once dear to me who are now just the mere memories I hold close. To think my last post will just end up like the rest. It's a shame if you ask me, they were wonderful people to come into my life in the first place.

First I'd like to recognize Levi Morales and Lindsay Rasmussen. Both were awesome friends and fun to talk to for hours on end. Thankfully it was just the course of life that split us apart. No bad or upsetting events caused that. To you both I wish the best of luck, miss you guys.

Second, the girl who taught me a lot in a different way, Katrina Hotz. So many things to say about this individual, but I will say that even after 6 years the name crosses my mind. An honest girl with a shame on me  tale, I was lucky to have known you, and I know it is my fault that we no longer share any relationship. I'm sorry for everything.

Kelly Nickels, a name that belongs to probably the most promising friendship potential killed off by outside influence and lies This one still hurts to be honest with you bloggers. She was the sweetest girl to date, with many extra common interests. Selfless and loves to see a happy world around her, a great loss in my life. I will miss you, even if you never know it. :(

Jackie Brunelle. One I never thought I would regret after the breakup, but with the first girl to really hold my heart and take it in care, I really do wish I had done things better. You had some mixed up ideas of others on this list, but all in all, I can see in hindsight where you might have gotten the ideas. I also know of the rumors that spread between the involved parties, that really didn't help. Our relationship was killed off by the stabs from many others around us, it was us versus the world, which turned us to fight one another. I am deeply sorry for the way things went, I wish I could have been a better person for you. You deserve better anyway, and I hope you have found it.

Dylan O'kray Man you were some fun, I wish you were still here. I wish I had gotten to know you better before your departure. A terrible addiction cut our friendship off short, leaving me and many other loved ones behind. We'll never forget your crazy fun personality and the person you were for us to enjoy for a time too short.

Finally to the most recent loss in my life goes to Sarah. You drifted away and into the circle of people that I know you can do better than, but your choices are your own, and I cannot change that. For two years you were the reason for many things for me. We had such great times, memories I'll never lose. I wish it didn't have to end in such a way. Someday things could change I suppose, but I hardly expect that. You are too stubborn to take my opinion into account. You were my best friend for a long while, and despite the sadness, I have to thank you for being such a good friend for some of my harder years. :(

This is not a complete list, but the biggest parts of my life that were taken away when they left. I really believe that you were all sent for a reason, I learned much from each of you. I am lucky to have a few good friends that will accompany these ranks shall they ever leave me, but for now, I will enjoy them as I wish I could enjoy each of you. Thank you for everything, and I am sorry for the troubles I caused some of you. I'll keep my Mind Ajar with the lessons you've taught me.